Prologue: This is a piece that I wrote one month after asking my girlfriend to go steady. Be official. Be together exclusively. I love looking back at things that I wrote at the beginning of our relationship. I actually wrote a lot. Most of it transformed into photos, and videos of her or moments together. Some are locked in a book I gifted to her—thats for her eyes only. We’ve gone through a lot of struggles, growth, and transformations. What I love about this piece the most is that my feelings have only grown—loving her more than before
Recounting the night. 010217
I wish I remembered to write that night I got home.
But I’m also glad I didn’t.
Having to reminisce let’s me know that I just want to live in the moment. Absorb every second I have with you.
The day I arrived felt like a dream.
So magical that DisneyLand can’t even compare. The amount of joy, love, and happiness that filled the air around me was tremendous.
It felt cosmic. The world was telling me that this was right. The touch of your hand, tight around mine.
The music soothing my ears, making my fingers and heels dance. The food melting my soul, rolling my eyes back, releasing the tension in my shoulders, and cupping my hand around my mouth.
The crisp air pushes me closer to you for warmth. The long path to the light house stretches for an eternity, so we could walk forever.
The lights of the pier twinkled like a sign from the universe. Your presence, warmed my heart, sending signals to mine telling me that you’ll always be here for me.
And mine ready to shout that I’ll always be here for you.
For the first time in my life, I have never felt more right with the universe. More right with just one person. That night is one I will never forget. A night that changed my life forever.
Epilogue: Our lives continue to change everyday. And I’d like to say that my feelings haven’t changed, but really they have. I didn’t think love could grow and break the boundaries of what I idealized as a perfect relationship. A perfect relationship to me today is one that can work with the push & pull tensions that arise from disagreement. That not just make compromises but willingness to adjust when necessary. And although that’s something we’re getting better at, I think that’s part of being a life-long learner and partner in this relationship. Wherever life takes us next, I know that we can navigate it together.
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